It was one of those days. Woke up with such a heavy heart. But well… the day should go on no matter what!!! I got outta my bed, and got Jaden ready for school. I drove all the way to his school with so many questions in my mind. The Christian radio wasn’t helping me, neither were the cd’s that I usually play in the car, helping me. I was sooo close to tears. I reached his school. I dropped him off…. and was driving back home. I almost got near home…. when the Lord suddenly told me to take the other entrance to the apartment. I didn’t know it was the Lord. I was thinking…. “Why am I feeling this way all of a sudden?” I decided to take the other entrance.
I drove down a wee bit more and took the other entrance. As I rode down, I saw a Mom holding the hand of her son and walking her little two year old in that chilly weather. The Lord assured my fearful heart…. that He is walking me through each day…. more … much much more closely than a mother and a father ever can. I parked my car at the parking lot and sat inside for a few minutes before I regained myself.
I had so many questions in my mind. And I kept pouring them out one by one. After I did, I was so fearful if I would be punished in God’s anger, coz I had actually ‘questioned’ God, out of frustration. Truly I was fearful. And I kept repenting for the same. But I was really really amazed to see God actually respond to my questions, in the most gentle and loving way.
Next time you have a question, don’t be afraid to ask God. I really do think it is human to ask questions. I remember my brother asking questions non-stop as a child. “Why is the moon white?” was one of his favorite questions 😀 He would ask us questions to the point that we’d be like…. “Binil…. STOP IT!!!” 🙂 And as we grow…. some of the questions still remain in our minds…. but seldom verbalized. But God as our Creator, does understand when we have questions…. and knows how to respond to each one of them…. however silly it sometimes may be!!! If it comes from a sincere heart….. rest assured…. God’s answer is on it’s way.
If you are walking through a rough road with many questions in mind….. just know that it’s okay to talk to God about your fears. But be assured…. that though you don’t see him, His loving and gentle hands is walking you each day, much more than human hands ever can!!!
“There you saw how the LORD your God carried you, as a father carries his son, all the way you went until you reached this place.” Deuteronomy 1:31
Through your pain and through your struggles, God will carry you all the way…… until you reach your destined place.
Have a fantabulous week ahead!!!